Sunday, November 16, 2008

LIFE IS ALWAYS CHANGING







<------- SERENA


I haven't added anything on my blog for a long time - mostly because I really don't think anyone reads it! But, just for kicks and to amuse myself - I will add another entry! I have had a rough last week or so. My sweet Faith is now gone from our home. She is in an awesome home where she has lots of love and attention. This is GREAT! Unfortunately, I have a wide gaping hole in my heart! I miss her so much and STILL go to her room to check on her at night. I don't know why I can't remember that she isn't in there. My heart actually hurts. Yet again - I know she is where Heavenly Father wants her! I am so grateful for that! On another note. I am starting a new job! WOOHOO!!!! I was hired as an assistant to some ladies that council parents when getting their children back from DSHS. I am not sure yet what the whole job entails, however I do know that I will be showing parent education films and buying baby things that they need. I'm SO EXCITED about it! I was going to have a sweet new foster baby on Monday - but decided that a new job and a new baby all at the same time probably wouldn't be so smart. So, I am going to wait a few weeks before welcoming another foster baby. This will give me time to learn my new job and prepare my heart as well. I just need to mourn Faith a little longer. I also just got back from a trip where I visited my kids, (Dayton and his wife Ashley and the little teeny tiny baby in Ashley). I'm SO EXCITED to be a Grandma! I also visited with a former foster baby, Serena. She is the apple of my eye! I really missed her! She is doing great and is as cute as ever! She is a tiny girl with a BIG attitude! :) She's adorable! She will be two in December and weighs 20 lbs. I love her and her family and have become close with them. What a blessing! I am also so grateful for a wonderful family that supports me and puts up with my emotions! They are awesome!!!!


DAYTON, ASHLEY & BABY?----->





Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Letting go

Today I met the prospective parents of our current foster baby Faith. She has been as one of my own and it's really hard to think of her leaving. I love her so much! It was a bitter-sweet day. The prospective parents have a two year old son. He loved Faith and Faith loved him. As I watched the dynamics play out - I was really excited for Faith and for them. I also felt my heart rip in two. I truly want what is best for Faith - it will just be so hard to let go. I pray every night that Heavenly Father will send Faith to a home that He wishes for her to go to. I totally trust in Him. "Faith" is a PERFECT name for this little girl. She has taught me all about "FAITH". I have learned and received a stronger trust in Heavenly Father. I know - no matter what - he is in control. He is in control of every situation. I trust in Him like I have never before! I can never in this lifetime be grateful enough to little Faith for what she has taught me. She is truly a treasure sent from Heaven...not only for me...but for many others that have crossed paths with her!


One of my little angels! They touch my heart in a way I could NEVER describe! I love them so much!